why isnt life simpler?

i really dunnoe what to say kennard.. just that i'm really sad/sorry to hear that ur treatment isn't going well and no end is in sight yet.. the tests and treatments sound very difficult and painful and i really think u've been very brave/strong in going through all that u've had to endure thus far.. i'm really trying to NOT be cheesy/corny but yeah.. i'm not sure that if i was in ur shoes, i would be able to respond that positively n strongly throughout all this.. so hang in there..

i'm sure i speak for all the balls that although most of us will be travelling in europe over the holidays, we won't forget you back home, for those of us who are around, we'll definitely come by to visit..

dun give up on life kenn.. as long as there is hope and friends and family worth seeing/living for.. it's probably very easy for me to say as i havent had things inserted into my chest (or anus) but it seems that there's a good chance that'll u'll make it through this and emerge better, wiser n stronger.. as for your memories, self and soul? only by living ur life to the fullest after recovery can you make more/better memories, become a better person and recover that energy, happiness and cockster part of you which i and all the balls definitely believe is the defining part of you and your soul. i know ur scared of quality of life issues but.. even if the worst happens and you arent the smartest, most lucid person, i know for sure that ur friends and fam won't look or treat u any different than now.. we all think that ur really showing alot of guts n strength in fighting through this

but yes i also agree with chieh that you need to find out more about the medical procedure, side-effects, odds etc.. before making ur choice.. sorry to get all sad and emo.. but i guess this is the kind of talk/advice i'd like to hear from a friend if i was deciding on something big and important.. up front honest and to the point..

sorry if i havent always been near you or around all the time kenn.. but you can be sure that i'm always there to help/talk to if u need me.. i'm sure all the other guys feel the same way too! i hope you get better and see you soon, i'm on the flight home tonight