gentlemen.. gentlemen

ello guys.. its 115am now and i admit.. i'm a bit drunk.. maybe thats why i'm bothering to post? ever had a drunken post? well this can be a first.. i challenge u all to follow suit.. alcohol is supposed to make u happy.. forget ur worries.. but i realize that right now.. i'm jsut crashing really really hard.. i'm not happy.. at all... i realize life here is miserable.. stuck on campus.. working my butt off.. how could anyone be happy? i know life will always be tough.. one can never be completely satisfied and happy.. either overseas or back home in spore.. but i mean.. i suddenly realize that i'm just unhappy here.. honestly i don't think i'm gonna do anything about it.. i don't have the balls to change the status quo.. and it would be embarassing to "abandon ship" and head home.. so much for an american adventure.. i hope the rest of you are faring better than me.. behind the facade of happiness... i'm just not satisfied with the way things r going here...

sigh.. melancholy melancholy.. maybe being a little drunk is gd.. brings out all the real feelings and emotions.. i don't do this very often.. contrary to what u guys think.. can't wait to go home to friends and family who i feel more comfortable with and who i know accept and love (don't freak out guys) for who i am.. i don't feel like i'm being true to myself over here.. being forced to conform to what pple expect.. esp being someone who's so much older than everyone else..

ok enough angst for one post.. hope wanking is feeling better.. he's prob suffered the most of all of the overseas balls.. andy.. keep going for ur sophmore girls.. and chieh don't go nuts.. singapore balls.. keep it up! soon everyone will be reunited again.. and we will once again forget the importance and value of true friends until we are separated again.. it's all so stupid.. but hey.. what can we do? we're merely dumbass mortals.. gdnite y'all.. haha.. y'all