Chi Shi

Nigel, my 20 page paper is due on Friday and i'm on page 4 and I haven't finished all the research. I want to be hardcore but for reasons of stupidity, I've failed. Studying AHEAD of them is actually the slackest way to go about it because its a lot more relaxing and chill when you've done everything and all you have to worry about is getting to bed at the right time and making sure your pens work.

This is what went through my mind when I decided to join in those weekend activites: Work at Brown like not that challenging leh, play a bit more then got less time then become more challenging loh. Bad, bad idea. Never ever think like that. Pride comes before a fall. If I buang my final paper can really eat shit and die. I'm too old for all these late-nights already. On a more positive note, I finished my Japanese presentation today where I brought in kaya toast for the class to eat haha. At least some people liked it. Some even had 2nds and 3rds though given the number of pieces I made, some didn't even have 1sts.

Yeah, sec 4 softball still bugs me sometimes. Especially since I was the captain (whisper it softly). I felt completely useless that time. And I remember dropping that flyball against ACS (I) in the South Zone match. That was the beginning of the end for me. I wanted to make amends in JC but all I did was sit on the bench. I guess I only finally accepted that somethings you can never make up for and got on with my life after JC when we got into the army. I sleep easier at night now. Honestly, softball was my life in JC, before studies and before girls. Now without it, sometimes I feel I need something to devote my life to. And it isn't studies. Shit, I hope I'm not feeling the urge to find a girlfriend. Ok, back to my paper. Work work.