Slowthil is last...

Hey guys. haha as usual i am slow in welcoming andy back. I din even know u had a welcome gift. sighzzz this chinese class is at such an anti social timing. Anyway, firstly I am the first to agree that the hype and then the picture was totally off. tats why i told joshba that she looks better in person....and secondly....WHY IS MA HOUSE THE MILF SHACK??????? i ain't no milf despo. if i remember correct...me brudder small balls happens to be jus that or even the jjoshba who happens to have a 33 yr old hounding his ass shud be one. i dun even have one! and revelations fer all of u....she jus called me BRO last nite. that virtually killed off any hopes i had of kioing her in six yrs time...anyway bout this holiday and stuff, i really hope we can make it between 20th and 29th may. I am going on the longest fricking holiday and once i'm back i am pretty sure my parents won't allow me to go on another one.

Now that i've dispensed with all the niceties...time to get down to addressing the real issues. my EMOness. Chieh/andy were shocked yday wen i emo-ed at josh fer apparently a very soft reason. And of course the fact that i've been emo-ing alot as well. And i thru the whole of yday afternoon i sat and tot as to why i was doing that and i tot i understood a lil. Trust me, i've given it alot of tot because ihate the feeling of EMO-ing at brudders. I hate the feeling of EMO-ing my parents too and its bout the same. Well....its pretty hard to put into words but i tink e reason why i emo is cos of the way u guys(not all la) stimes take other brudders fer granted. Agreed we are brudders, closer than most but there need to be limits to which u can take fer granted wat another brudder does fer u. I'm not saying that becos i feel i've done so much fer others and no one's done anything back. I did do e essay fer chieh and he was pretty nice about it. i did make the tira and u guys were pretty complimentary bout it and i was damn happy. But the lil things like giving a lift, giving ideas fer sth, going somewhere...sometimes some pple poo-poo others jus cos they dun feel its a gr8 idea or cos they got certain selfish constraints like money. And then u have to remind them of those lil favors u have done fer them in the past. And all of a sudden u become exalted brudder jus cos u have a car or because u gonna pay fer the next roundof DOTA or sth. I hate that....it reminds me of my fucking S1 n its happening within the ball brudders. I am sick and tired of brudders being selfish, being ungrateful, taking others fer granted and i am sick of emoing...this is not emoing btw...its calm reflection early in the morning....lets jus not shoot each other in the foot anymore.

Blackie Ball Brudder alias Dai Shan Shui